(Amsterdam, 30 Sept '05)

Marceline Goedegebuure
1977 - 2005

What do you do?

How do you 'handle' news like that?

Because unlike in the novels, after a second and a half everything restarts itself and keeps on going around you. And the monstrous injustice of the world is, it's all just the same as it was two seconds before. Except your friend is gone.

What do you say? To yourself - let alone anyone else - let alone those who were so much closer? Think about it, talk about it, write a tasteless post about it on some stupid website, of all things -- will this help? Will anything? You can talk all you want to about the Already, but sometimes, all you're left with is the Not Yet. There's someone in charge, but he's never once said it would be fair. Only real.


The Lord gave,
and the Lord has taken away.
Blessed be the name of the Lord.
Job 1:21